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[perfectible]

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[perfectible]

Being here? Or being yourself? Because the answer to both is I don't know. I'm still not comfortable with myself completely and it's scary to be open to people, especially with people who can hurt me.

[ she doesn't mean physically. ]

And I don't think I'll ever be comfortable with this place or unafraid of what it can do.

[sunmon]

comfortable with yourself.
i just keep thinking to myself how much mal would hate the person i've become.
that's weird isn't it?
i don't even know if i hate the person i've become. because the first thing that occurs to me is whether or not mal would.

[perfectible]

That's not weird when you're so entangled with someone, they are your family or when you love them. I think a lot about how Jughead or my mom would of what I'm doing now.

It's not weird to think about what others would think of you and your choices, almost everyone does.

[ it's easy to be wise when you don't have to look inward and are helping someone else. ]

[sunmon]

isn't it more important what i think about it, though?

[perfectible]

Of course, it is. But that's a motivational poster. In reality, it's not easy to just shed that, right? I think you have to train yourself to think that way.

[sunmon]

what's a motivational poster

[perfectible]

[ betty lets out a stressed sort of laugh at that tension breaker. ]

In school, we'd have posters hanging up around our classrooms and they'd have cheesy motivational sayings on them and then like a picture of a whale jumping out of the water or a little dog carrying a huge stick.

[sunmon]

your world has strange taste in art

[perfectible]

I wouldn't call it "art" to be honest.

[sunmon]

what else do you call photography and portraiture?

[perfectible]

We call them propaganda or well... motivational posters. It is its own category.

[sunmon]

we use propaganda in ravka.
it's still a kind of art, most would say. it uses art to do its purpose.

[perfectible]

I guess that's why they say art is subjective.

Do you like art?

[sunmon]

i do own an art studio.
you should come by sometime and model for us.

[perfectible]

Wow. I'm the worst, I completely forgot.
Me? Really?

[sunmon]

in your defense, you've been very busy since it got running. scratch is a big project.

but yes! you. it's not so different from what you do on stage. just ... staying still. and longer.